Love so right

2004-03-29 7:05 p.m.

I planned to update my diary with two events, the debate party last December and the outing with my church friends, be something truly unexpected cropped up on Sunday night. It was around 2030 or so that I dragged myself up to do my favourite sport: blog/diary surfing. It just so happened that some friend was online and being my usual irritating self I sent that person an online message. What ensued initially was just brief greetings and me updating that person on the days events. All of a sudden, the subject turned to something regarding relationships and the precarious world of love. The gist of it was well jealousy and bewilderment over her actions and attitude. I guess it all was because of how close one really is to others. I know that there are classifications such as “friend” “close friend” and “life partner”, but after you use them, they may end up hurting you more.

Back to the conversation, it drifted to a topic of two people liking/loving the same person at once was the gist of the story. Now I must admit here that I was, am and not likely to be a person to provide any plausible solution to broken or breaking relationships but the general them of the night made me throw up some ideas.

Love is a bridge, it will hold if we build it well and collapse if we create a flimsy structure. Like a bridge, there are two ends and hence two must play the part. The bridge can’t be completed if one doesn’t construct his or her end. That’s not just all love is about. Sometimes, one just seeks a platonic relationship; just the knowledge of having someone special in your life will complete the gap that you have been having. In that case, your bridge has a tiny missing piece which is filled occasionally but always removed after that. Nothing so horrible about that in my perspective.

The worse part of course is when one person finds some interest else where and constructs another bridge elsewhere. In that case, there are a wide range of solutions to it. I won’t get into them but I’d just say that that knowledge is naturally tormenting. Looking from one angle, it’s devastating but from another it’s just a splinter or a pothole that can be fixed. Human anguish will still remain after the situation has passed or is remedied, humans just can go without keeping poignant moments in their minds. This brings us back to what is love and what love can do for you. For now, I see little light in it but things may change.

Let’s see, as usual I’ll end off with songs. Yes yet again it’s a song from the Bee Gees:

(Our Love) Don't Throw It All Away

Maybe I don't wanna know the reason why.
But lately you don't talk to me.
Darling, I can't see me in your eyes.

I hold you near but you're so far away.
And it's losing you I can't believe,
to watch you leave and let this feeling die.

You alone
are the living thing that keeps me alive.
And tomorrow
if I'm here without your love,
you know I can't survive.
Only my love can raise you high above it all.

Don't throw it all away, our love, our love.
Don't throw it all away, our love.
Don't throw it all away, our love, our love.
Don't throw it all away, our love.

We can take the darkness and make if full of light.
But let your love flow back to me.
How can you leave and let this feeling die.

This happy room will be a lonely place when you are gone.
And I won't even have your shoulders for the crying on.
No other woman's love could be as true, I'm begging you...

Don't throw it all away, our love, our love.
Don't throw it all away, our love.
Don't throw it all away, our love, our love.
Don't throw it all away, our love.

We changed the world, we made it ours to hold.
But dreams are made for those who really try.
This losing you is real.
But I still feel you here inside.

Don't throw it all away, our love, our love.
Don't throw it all away, our love.
Don't throw it all away, our love, our love.
Don't throw it all away, our love....

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